When I was a kid, there was a brief period of time during which I felt quite sure I was going to be a surgeon. I was basically an expert, I reasoned, in operating room practices and in the workings of human innards.
I was such a good self-taught physician that I could diagnose myself, even. When in third grade it was time to do long division, I would regularly report an acute pain on my lower right side -- recurring bouts of appendicitis, naturally, that meant I couldn't possibly sit through my math studies.
My teacher often had to point out that I often confused my left and right sides, but still. I knew about appendices, I felt! I learned it from a computer game.
This game was The Software Toolworks' Life & Death
, a 1988 point-and-click medical simulation, complex and distinct enough that it maintains a kernel of cult fandom to this day. The player takes the role of a surgeon who diagnoses patients through touch, X-ray and ultrasound machinery, and prescribes them through a variety of ailments ranging from kidney stones to aortic aneurysms.
The major challenge of Life & Death
lies within the operations portion, though. Say your patient has some tenderness specific to one region, and an X-Ray reveals no kidney stones -- you as the doctor determine appendicitis and head to the operating room.
What follows is actually a deceptively complex series of tasks; the player controls a scalpel and its associated insicions with a steady hand on the mouse, and manages every aspect of the operation. Delicate tissues require different techniques than sturdy muscle, for example; heart conditions that can arise mid-operation require injections, and the procedures to graft a damaged aorta or remove a virulent appendix are incredibly detailed, involving sutures, clamps, vials and anything else you might guess at when you think about surgery.
Life & Death
is so detail-intensive that anyone playing it is liable to wonder if it's based, at least in part, on real medical procedures. It's not uncommon to come through a successful playthrough privately entertaining the idea that, if any of your friends suddenly needed emergency surgery, you could probably
figure it out.
From a game design standpoint, the fun comes from that required attention to detail. With just a mouse, the game manages to create an impressive variety of challenges. Some are precision-oriented; click the wrong part and you might puncture something. Your incisions must be tidy and just long enough.
Others are speed-oriented: Address the unstable EKG or clamp the bleeding wound before it gets out of hand. Still others are process-oriented: You must inject the right anti-clotting agent before opening the aorta, or you must very carefully observe the right series of tasks for managing peritoneal layers, and remember them each time. A missed step or mishandled task bumps you back to medical school for a visual correction, and then you're back on the ward to try again.
There are some subtle touches, too: You can pick your two attendant staffers for surgery -- they act as the feedback system -- and each of them has a dossier that lets you know who they do and don't work well with. Pick a pair with the right area of expertise that are compatible and they'll be more helpful to you in surgery than others.
The amazing thing about this old gem, though, is how it manages to create just the state of mind that one imagines a surgeon might have: Breath bated, absolute concentration, every fingertip tremor a potential threat.
Players need to learn their way through the proper surgical procedures for appendectomies and aneurysms in part by intuition, but mostly through trial and error. Each time you put a new patient under the knife, you might feel like this
is the time you've really got it; eager to be correct, you proceed with proud learned behavior through virtual vital organs -- until you reach a brand-new moment of unfamiliarity.
One wrong move could kill your patient and force you to start again. It's incredibly tense and thrilling, and it's the source of the immersion and challenge in the game.
I'm frequently fascinated when I revisit old games that flout what we now know today to be among the best practices of game design: Don't frustrate players, don't make them repeat themselves. Don't create failure states for the purpose of providing information -- give players a chance to arm themselves for the challenges to come rather than correcting by punishment.
Life & Death
is incredibly frustrating. It's also incredibly repetitive. It's probably not fair that once I splay my patient's viscera I won't know where to clamp the meso-whatever artery until I've done it wrong and have to start again. Today's games would at least have given me some virtual books to read and practice before they made me try to work all that arterial stuff out.
But would I still have the same drive toward triumph, the motivation of a space that's nearly-learned, whose conquering is just around the next bend? The sense of mastery, when repetition eventually makes of me a confident surgeon who can breeze through the first few minutes of skin and subcutaneous fat with expert detachment? How would I get the thrill of finally realizing you must pull aside the small intestine like a curtain to be swaddled in a sterile towel, there to find a whole new layer of body to navigate?
Life & Death
succeeds through its stubbornness. It is unfair and it's not easy, and it taxes players' memories as much as their motor skills. And that's why it captured my imagination so much as a child, and why it created the wrist-quivering hyperfocus, the deep investment in getting it right this time
that made me believe, as an eight or nine year-old, that I had it in me to be a doctor. That I might love it.
Playing older, smaller games is always interesting. Nearly all the time as I point-and-click, or wrestle with text parsers, or stealthily Google obscure FAQs, I think, "No one would ever make a game like this today."
that's a good thing. Most shareware adventure game designers who cobbled together clumsy stories in WorldBuilder (complete with alternately humble and snarky requests for $5 by snail mail!) were half creative, half curious, but even the pros were shooting in the dark when I was a kid.
Now we know much better what makes good video games, but sometimes I stumble across these counter-intuitive little miracles that make me wonder if we now know too much.
There are a lot of childhood favorites I revisit only to realize that I was just especially forgiving and imaginitive, and that those 'favorites' were not in fact of mentionable quality. Life & Death
still gets its hooks way under my skin, though, and I think that's because it's complex and inventive using only a simple interface -- and because it's willing to make me upset with it.
My teacher let me know that becoming a surgeon would require strong math skills and a patience for long years of school. Yeah, I'll just stick to Life & Death
, thanks. I wish people made more games like it today.